Fats, Vitamins and Minerals

What a rather disturbing start of the day. I was woken up around past two in the morning to go to the toilet. I also had a strange dream. I got up early, around 6AM and ate the hard-boiled egg prepared last night, for breakfast. It wasn’t enough but there wasn’t really anything around to eat, and I had only about twenty pesos in my wallet. I will need to buy some groceries soon, especially for myself. There are quite a number of people in the house but somehow not enough to eat sometimes, especially if one was going to eat properly. It’s my father’s birthday today (he would have been 68 years old), maybe my mother will prepare something special for lunch or dinner.

I went to sleep a bit after looking at the plants in the garden because sleep is a nice way of letting the time pass. But I had another disturbing dream and so I had to get up and look for something to cook. There was one tin of corned beef, but it was nearly 11AM so I decided to just wait … my mother is in the kitchen with Nery, preparing lunch …

Anyway, I should get more of my own food soon so that I can eat proper breakfast everyday and good merienda. I’m not really gaining any weight and I still tire so easily. Sometimes I think that maybe there’s something terminally wrong with me, just waiting to announce itself. I won’t be surprised … after all the stress that I’ve been through. Quite sad to think about a future,

It must be a very low period now, that I think about these things. I normally don’t think about difficult possibilities in the future. Pretty much like my dad I know that I won’t mind just being put down immediately if I get sick and start to burden the family, although I don’t think that that’s legal. My father would understand and I’m sure he’ll find a way to quickly take me away with him.

It was raining all night, then a bit of sunshine in the early morning, and now it’s raining again. At least now I feel sad, it is better to be sad than angry. Earlier I was angry and frustrated…

But it was nice early morning seeing Alwin getting ready for school, looking for Edward, and Gemma was teasing him.

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